Hi Ramsesymom! You should feel UP about the changes you are making. Try to ignore, or at least minimize the down feelings. They will only set you up for failure. Look at the positive changes and hang on to them. We all are here because we've made some poor choices that caused us to lose fitness, gain weight, make poor eating choices, whatever. But everyone who posts here has made a concious decision to change what they are doing. You have switched to an alternate path. For me, I think about where I might be if I hadn't taken on this lifestyle. I was 70 pounds overweight, starting to develop issues with blood chemistry, arthritis, body aches, etc. I would still be feeling all that and more. (I shudder when I think about it.) Now, I'm not where I want to finish up, but I'm making progress. I'm learning how my body reacts to different foods, and making a concious effort to improve my overall health. I have a lot of living to do, and by changing what I am doing now, I can enjoy that living and whatever life throws my way. You can too. Look forward, not back. Hindsight is always 20/20!